Conversations.....

Last week there was a wedding in town which I did not attend. There were so many reasons for me not going, and apart from that I did not want to mingle with people who I find it hard to communicate with and people who think more of themselves and have nothing better to talk about other then money, women and cars or in a similar nature that makes a man or women go for it in a conversation, GOSSIP LOL

I find it hard to go to weddings, funerals and well lots of occasions that include crying and places or parties where people are in a sombre mood and not communicative. I find it hard with people when a conversation veers to nothing and you are left staring at the ground going ' mm mm yes you are right.....' or ' yes, yes very true.....!!!'
Why do people find it hard to make a conversation that will help others and not make one look stupid? I have been in that situation and made a fool of myself, and am not ashamed to say that I find it hard sometimes to make a conversation with people who seem to be not interested or are bored with teh whole party situation and hence making the the conversation thing a big problem, I am sure there are many of us who will argue in a conversation to a point of hitting someone or get angry just because they feel or think they are right. I am up for anything that makes a whole conversation a learning point, be it experiences or something exciting or strange as long as it keeps the people around you enthralled and enjoying the talk with a lot of unanswered questions or sighing and thinking and wishing that one could have been there or trying to picture oneself being in such a situation where one experiences from what the speaker was talking about that particular subject........
Hard to understand, well next time when one is talking about an experience, try listening and feel what he or she is experiencing emotionally on that particular subject and feel....maybe you might be able to understand the conversation more better....

Well am back but it seems like a long time ago since I updated this blog. I found it hard to concentrate and was having a big time drawback mentally. First I had problems with some staff, then I sold off my vehicle and on top of it Jenny came back half way from her hairdressing course with some issues and I was losing it with helping a friend whom I unknowingly introduced to a conman and and this fellow took my friend's passport and letting my friend know that he would get the visa stamped on the passport and 5 months passed and no visa and no passport and finally I had to intervene and do the needful and get that passport stamped and have everything in proper order.
Anyway in the midst of all this, I started taking Prozac and after a few weeks I could think straight and knew where my priorities lay and what could be done. Otherwise I would have been a screaming queen and getting on everyone's nerves and be a bitch.
Things and life are fine at the moment and am feeling good apart from having to do many cakes and being at work and running errands... and the staff shortage is always there....... I hope to keep posting again and let you know whats happening in my life....

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