I was watching a movie the other day and it was a love story of sorts and suddenly I realized that I have forgotten how to love a loved one. I mean I was watching a movie but those emotions didn't stir anything in me and i was left wondering why?
I know that earlier this year when I decided that my priority would be my sister and her education and love and all that baggage that comes with it would be left on the side and not be concentrated on, I didn't know that I would shut myself off from loving... loving a lover that is and not a family love, like you love a sibling or a parent.
And suddenly I gather that I don't feel anything at all.... HA!! I know it's crazy but I feel like I can shut things out of my life if I want to, by just believing and concentrating hard enough that I do not want it or don't want to do a particular thing or vice versa....
On the other hand is it healthy for me to do that by cutting of emotions that make us all human and strong and because of those emotions we can overcome certain barriers in life and move on or suppress them and do crazy things???
At the moment, I am getting ready to embark on our journey to Zainab's destination for her college... I dread traveling and it reminds me of the time when I went with my brother to Arusha and it was a very long journey, I know I could fly but then it's twice expensive and at the moment I am trying to curb all the expenses and trying to save money.
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Educating Zainab
well....time for an update, I gather I have been acting like my other blogging friends who write only once a month and they do, I, it seems have not blogged for more then a month and there is an excuse, laziness and procrastination.
Apparently I have been working on where to send my sister Zainab... she just finished her 'O' levels at the Iringa International School and so she wanted to do nursing and child care but just looking at the journals and medical books that she has to read and attend classes and make her own notes just makes her cringe, so she has a chance to do something different and I will be dropping her off at an academy where she can hone her art of making self beauty and all that stuff, and then she can decide what she wants, the other option is doing a diploma and a degree in art which she loves so all in all it is her choice and also she wants to do something with fashion, designing/management and business/consultancy... whatever the package is or comes with.
Tough as it may seem for me, my baby sister has grown up and ready to leave home. I guess she would have wasted her time if I had asked her to stay at home for a year, let her see the world and know how it is to stand on her own two feet.
By the way, we have a new kitten/cat, the last one got nicked by people who move up and down the alley which is a freeway for people using the bathroom at the end of the house...well outside the house. I mean customers and locals who have shops nearby. Why one couldn't ask is still a mystery to me, and why steal in the first place... a kitten for God's sake????
Some people will do anything HUH!!!!
Apparently I have been working on where to send my sister Zainab... she just finished her 'O' levels at the Iringa International School and so she wanted to do nursing and child care but just looking at the journals and medical books that she has to read and attend classes and make her own notes just makes her cringe, so she has a chance to do something different and I will be dropping her off at an academy where she can hone her art of making self beauty and all that stuff, and then she can decide what she wants, the other option is doing a diploma and a degree in art which she loves so all in all it is her choice and also she wants to do something with fashion, designing/management and business/consultancy... whatever the package is or comes with.
Tough as it may seem for me, my baby sister has grown up and ready to leave home. I guess she would have wasted her time if I had asked her to stay at home for a year, let her see the world and know how it is to stand on her own two feet.
By the way, we have a new kitten/cat, the last one got nicked by people who move up and down the alley which is a freeway for people using the bathroom at the end of the house...well outside the house. I mean customers and locals who have shops nearby. Why one couldn't ask is still a mystery to me, and why steal in the first place... a kitten for God's sake????
Some people will do anything HUH!!!!
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