Emotions

I was watching a movie the other day and it was a love story of sorts and suddenly I realized that I have forgotten how to love a loved one. I mean I was watching a movie but those emotions didn't stir anything in me and i was left wondering why?
I know that earlier this year when I decided that my priority would be my sister and her education and love and all that baggage that comes with it would be left on the side and not be concentrated on, I didn't know that I would shut myself off from loving... loving a lover that is and not a family love, like you love a sibling or a parent.
And suddenly I gather that I don't feel anything at all.... HA!! I know it's crazy but I feel like I can shut things out of my life if I want to, by just believing and concentrating hard enough that I do not want it or don't want to do a particular thing or vice versa....

On the other hand is it healthy for me to do that by cutting of emotions that make us all human and strong and because of those emotions we can overcome certain barriers in life and move on or suppress them and do crazy things???

At the moment, I am getting ready to embark on our journey to Zainab's destination for her college... I dread traveling and it reminds me of the time when I went with my brother to Arusha and it was a very long journey, I know I could fly but then it's twice expensive and at the moment I am trying to curb all the expenses and trying to save money.